The time, the wind and the waves

          Dear bloggie, I'm going back to Kedah tomorrow. A place where I can describe as dessert. A place where everyone compete for survival; a place where everything is lacking - information, facilities and entertainments. Maybe I'm feeling really pessimistic by knowing that I'm returning to college. Maybe things aren't that bad actually.

            Ken were asking me if I wanna try to hear the differences the quality of songs between mp3 or flac. I didn't tell him that I actually know the differences already. That guy introduced this to me earlier. Anyway, Ken said I can only choose one song because the file is quite large to be sent via mail. Heh, I'm a fan of Taylor so I decided to pick one of hers. I was about to choose You Belong to Me by Taylor Swift but later I changed my mind. I picked White Horse instead.

           As I was listening to it, he came into my mind. I was actually very emo when I went for movie with brother in the afternoon. The cinema is the cause of all these sudden pain in the chest. When we were on the way home, the view of seaside reminded me of him bringing me to a secret place. Lols. A place where we can enjoy the view and we sat in the car talking for quite some time. Later, pieces of memories came in one after one. And they made me feeling so-freaking-and-damn emo when I was packing. It's hard for me to believe that 4 months pass swiftly and it's even harder for me to leave Penang.

          His birthday falls on September, on the 23rd if I'm not mistaken. I deleted his birthday from my calender due to anger. So I can't be 100% sure of this. I remembered planning what surprises and present should I give to him during those days. Haha. I figured out what to gift but haven't planned any surprises. I don't think there is a need anymore. Time will take away our pain; wind will blow away our memories; waves will wash away our footsteps. Then we'll left with nothing. I miss you. xx 

White Horse - Taylor Swift 

Say you're sorry, that face of an angel

Comes out just when you need it to

As I paced back and forth all this time

Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on, the days drag on

Stupid girl, I should have known

I should have known

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale

I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet

Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down

Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes

And never really had a chance

(My mistake, I didn't know to be in love

You had to fight to have the upper hand)

I had so many dreams about you and me

Happy endings, now I know

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale

I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet

Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down

Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

And there you are on your knees

Begging for forgiveness, begging for me

Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale

I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well

This is a big world, that was a small town

There in my rearview mirror disappearing now

And it's too late for you and your white horse

Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa

Try and catch me now

Oh, it's too late to catch me now